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I left my head and my heart on the dance floor.

22 January 1985
first a poorly-written jumbled up autobiography & then some quotes

I may be crazy.
That does not mean I am WRONG.
I'm MAD but I'm NOT ILL.

"Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world."
~Harriet Tubman

‎"If you go someones house, and they don't have books, DON'T FUCK THEM" - John Waters ;-)
I am a Scientist of the Metaphysical.
Indigo Child.
Born "under the veil"
Aquarius Sun & Moon
Chinese Astrology= Wood Rat
Eccentric, Intellectual, and rejection of authority are supposed to be my main personality traits. :P

I'm 26 years old. happily married for 10 years and over-protective tribal mama bear of four- Dara Venus (10/13/2001), Zoe Ambrosia (12/12/2003), Gabriel Joseph (08/08/2007), and Atticus Victor (11/19/2010). Of course my kids are my life. However, I have my own adult hobbies outside of parenting hobbies, as well. However, my IMPORTANT life goals and ambitions are all centered around improving the lives of my children! ♥ I plan to further pursue a medical career later in 2011 to be better able to provide extras aside just necessity life things for my beautiful family. I am, however, in no rush.
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I am crafty and make hemp jewelry with glass-blown beads often. Jewelry-making is mainly an artistic hobby to me yet some people have commisioned me to make them custom hemp necklaces for pay. *shrug* I COLLAGE!, paint, draw, and my favorite is photography (yet I am terrible thus far and do not have the appropriate equipment to improve at the moment... it's a goal I have set for myself, however. I GREATLY admire my many talented friends!)
Thank God that with strength and faithful holding on- We made it by the grace of God/nature/love/higher power/love and light energy force/whatever you want to label it.... now we are moving forward with complete faith, trust, ambition, and confidence!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I decided to get Tubal Ligation surgery as a method of PERMANENT birth control. My kids are my everything, thus responsibility is important & 4 is the perfect number of offspring for us! <3
RANDOM THINGS I LIKE/LOVE ♥ & in no particular order!!!!! WHAT FUN!!!!:

EBM/dark electro music, nature, dirty hippies & homeless winos with stories!, reading, giving advice, freedom, Libertarianism, faces/sounds babies make when they are pooping, Uncle Remus, the 1920's clothing/dance style, learning,nuerochemistry/nuerochemicals, peace amongst all fellow humans/humanoids, reptilian conspiracy theories, making people smile, dancing barefoot in the rain/mud, jam bands, Jason Mraz, concerts, Lady Gaga, bongo drums, raves, Bonnaroo, benzodiazepine medications to cure my crazy, long deep interesting conversation about anything, ANTI-Handlebar mustache, beaches, forests, woodland critters, monkeys that fling poo at humans, drum circles, soup kitchen folk, being sober around people drunk (LOL @ them), not bbeing inside an airplane, harry potter, dreams that are good, sexual intercourse, GOD, femle friends, gangsta rap, Buddy Holly, helping people, Christmas lights, nuerology, Psychology, Schema Therapy, Borderline Personality Disorder, living an abnormal life yet playing an acting game (that it's as normal as everyone elses', breastfeeding, auto tuned government officials, faces on cereal/rice/food item boxes that stare at you, artificial flavours with carcinogens minus the carcinogens, GLASS baby bottles, hand santizer, fuzzy blanket, people who actually love me, strobe lights, haunted houses (real or fake), avoiding cancer, being risky yet responsible, balancing out life, not having a heart attack, making hemp jewelry, legalizing weed but not smoking it, NOT DOGS.. I HATE DOGS.. THEY ARE *NOT* COOL OR CUTE PPL!!!!, texting, drawing, phone calls with friends, people with brains, talent, house elves, thestrals, rainbows, baby legs, cloth diapers (fuzzi bunz r kewltown), scaring away the normals, cats minus their smell UGH, natural weight loss as opposed to bariatric surgery... same goes for cosmetic surgeries of other types, dentures, dental implants, colored/bizzare cosmetic contact lenses, my alien encounter, making lil "tweens" who think I'm a "hipster" end up thinking I am embarressing and boring.. on purpose, sewing, learning to knit, cooking when it turns out good, Discordianism (once in a while), artwork, painting, scented candles, HUGS, the opposite of depression/depressing, cheesecake, not being able to spell properly, sweating to the oldies, Richard Simmons' heterosexual masculinity, diabeetus, wilford brimley, the guy from that show with the fonz, the guy who played the fonz, muting the television during news segments or bad tv and making screenplays for the ppl taking, the fact that some birds poop white, no sports, sleeping when it's convenient, They Live, Stephen King, anti-pornography (boooooooring), the X-Files, tie dye, Family Guy, Old people debating without raising their voices, computing on computers when i am bored (like now), funny websites, the way Asians WRITE paragraphs and use adjectives when advertising to Americans, amusing Asian cartoon faces, fwied wicce an a vegga-bowl, amusing only myself, LAUGHING, trees, seeing others happy, goblins in the sky, mushrooms, chocolate mushrooms, other-worldly creatures, donating to charity when not poor, snouts, women without facial hair, mullets, sappy country music containing that twang instrument.. the fiddle or whatever it is called, parrothead cichlids, talking to my deceased parents in my head, peopleofwalmart.com, rat tails, FEAR OF MICE!, Erzebet Bathory's creepiness, mythology, gay rights, Ellen DeGeneres, kind people, heckling the Westboro Baptist Church, blondes and red-heads, blood type O+, faeries, NATIVE AMERICAN FOLKLORE, SHAMANS, not organized religion, sappy Lifetime original movies, Old skool cartoons, being creative, Android's ruling the world conspiracy theories, ordering Chinese food from Asian people with accents, going for walks, camping, Terence McKenna, Timothy Leary, pandas, koalas, poison dart frogs, King Kong dying for your sins?, love, true love, God's love, <3, lucid dreaming, Anti-Anti-depressants, weirdos that are not violent, non-violence, not fasting on purpose, religious quotes, meditation, the moon, phases of the moon, green wicca, the Sun, Sun Gods, Angels, orange juice, disability paychecks existing, universal truth, peace/love/warmth/happiness/no worries, and many many more..........................
I have friends from all walks of life and am easy to get along with if given the chance, fyi. (Shockingly so!) I try my best to NEVER judge others. That's not my place in life. Live and let live. However, I do speak out about that which I believe in.... IF the right nerve is hit/I feel the need.
I always attempt to stay positive (despite having lived a life full of trauma & fear) and stick with the good vibes most of the time..... My God of all that is GOOD in the universe, love and light has helped me to recover from tragedy and emerge at least a newer more responsible human being than I ever was before & I have been taught to NEVER EVER take a moment or anything for granted....
Here's a bizarre fact: I always do end up being a counselor for friends... relationships/drugs/depression/grief/phobias/etc.. and I never ever ATTEMPT TO PUT MYSELF IN THAT POSITION... People come to me, reach out to me and TBH I do not mind at all. I used to work with severely Autistic children (teaching them to communicate better, muscle excersizes/physical therapy type activities, and teaching them via sign language. I have always had a passion for disabled (especially autistic children) as I KNOW that the have far much more potential and are much more intelligent than the general public gives them credit for & I enjoy seeing them thrive..... I had contemplated becoming a full-fledged Special Education teacher, yet I feel more and more pulled towards the medical field.. All I KNOW at this particular moment is that apparently and ironically maybe Psychology is where I need to head career-wise,. Again, I am just enjoying the life of an eccentric and fun SAHM at the moment and want nothing more until the time is right. Time is precious! ♥
Some random traits applying to my bizarre (or not?) personality...

HEDONISM: willing to break the law if the monetary benefit is great enough, likes tattoos, likes strip clubs, prone to substance abuse, prone to shoplifting, thinks marijuana should be legalized, not opposed to breaking laws, promiscuous, kinky, believes pleasure should play a central role in life, can be crude, does not worry about consequences of actions, addictive tendencies, more a night person than a day person, erotic, more likely to have been on anti-depressants, gets attention through negative behavior, reckless with money, prone to nihilism, unpredicable, self destructive

MYSTICAL: feels pulled to the symbolic, archetypal, and mysterious; likes to look weird, believes in extra sensory perception, lives an experimental life, frequently reinvents self, more abstract than logical, more likely to be a trauma survivor, looks for hidden meaning, attracted to weirdness, different, off beat, unpredictable, more solitary, focus on fantasies more than reality, drawn to artistic and cutting edge industries, prefers autonomy, erotic, charmer, insightful, prefers strange clothing

ANTI-AUTHORITY: resents supervision, does not like to be bound by schedules or habits, prefers to do things when they feel ready, appreciation for anarchy, has a need for complete freedom, would rather work for self than a company, questions everything, wants things done their way, prone to behavior problems in school, gets angry when they don't get what they want, subversive, tends to dislike organized religion, fears confinement, values loyalty, challenging

VAIN: uses looks to get what they want, believes looking good is more important than comfort, feels best when others find them physically attractive, believes other people are envious of them, feels best when admired, attentive to appearance, spends a lot of time thinking about what is attractive, feels they are better looking than most people, competes for the spotlight, self promoting, feels both superior and defective, likes to manipulate others, seductive, used to getting their way, reckless with money, wealth seeking, desires more attention

ARTISTIC: drawn to artistic and cutting edge industries, drawn to careers where creativity is a solitary pursuit, more abstract than concrete, original, appreciates beauty, ideal love seeking, intense, imaginative, introspective, prone to an interest in acting, self expressive, likes to look wierd, pulled to the symbolic and mysterious, likes to perform, prone to keeping a journal, attracted to the counter culture, interested in journalism, odd, trend setter, different, lives an experimental life, prefers shopping at organic markets, attracted to wierdness, more likely to be vegetarian, dislikes the ordinary and non dramatic, feels both special and defectivE

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Some scientists claim that hydrogen, because it is so plentiful, is the basic building block of the universe. I dispute that. I say there is more stupidity than hydrogen, and that is the basic building block of the universe.
~Frank Zappa

The computer can't tell you the emotional story. It can give you the exact mathematical design, but what's missing is the eyebrows.
~Frank Zappa

The United States is a nation of laws: badly written and randomly enforced.
~Frank Zappa

It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed.
~Theodore Roosevelt

The greatest mistake you can make in life is to continually be afraid you will make one.
~Elbert Hubbard

Little minds are tamed and subdued by misfortunes; but great minds rise above them.
~Washington Irving

He who fears being conquered is sure of defeat.
~Napoleon Bonaparte

A wise man will make more opportunities than he finds.
~Francis Bacon

The great and glorious masterpiece of
man is to know how to live to purpose.
~Michel de Montaigne

Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world.
~Harriet Tubman

Reach high, for stars lie hidden in your soul. Dream deep, for every dream precedes the goal.
~Pamela Vaull Starr

Hold fast to dreams, for if dreams die, life is a broken winged bird that cannot fly.
~Lanston Hughes

The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.
~Eleanor Roosevelt

Commitment leads to action. Action brings your dream closer.
~Marcia Wieder

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